To a girl who sat and listened
helped me while i cried
spoke peace to my condition
and helped me learn to confide
I was scared to speak
since i was taught not to
that it meant i was weak
but you said that wasn't true
then you listened
pulled me close
and let me rest
with emotions exposed
you made me feel safe
like i was home
i didn't want to leave your place
since it was peace on a tiresome day
thank you for listening my dear
thank you for helping me be strong
thank you for quieting my fears
and being with me on this journey all along.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Monday, September 24, 2012
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welcome to a place
where god celebrates with you
by waking us with his grace
and making reality finally seem true
but i was scared of seeing the genuine
so i devised a plan made of lonely
bricks
that sought to keep his grace confined
and restrain my heart from being fixed
brick by lonely brick i build my
desolate wall
i built it so thick the sun stopped
shining
and i was confined to a world so small
my heart began a process of dying
day became so dark
my heart became so numb
until i saw a little spark
that reminded me what i was created
from
then i heard a murmur
from the outside of the wall
it made my heart go into tremors
since the voice whispered my name being
called
the voice asked about my health
and said i would die
i thought it was a lie until he told me
i had built the wall around myself
he said he'd take the lonely bricks on
himself
and do it alone with his might
so i could know true health
and come back to real life
when the final brick was moved
my heart sank once more
he took the wall on himself, fully, in
servitude
because of me he is bound... my heart
tore
i laid there weeping for a day
cursing my damned wall
the one who saved me from myself i
betrayed
and he took it all
knowing i couldn't break a wall
reinforced
i began to leave, since i had nothing
to bring
then in radiant light he burst forth
like a phoenix bearing wings.
he emerged carrying his grace and glory
so i could celebrate again
without a care or a worry
or a thought of where i have been
my lonely desolate wall was gone
without a trace
along with the reminder that i was
once damned
he came close and gently put his hand
on my face
and simply said
" here i am"
Monday, April 16, 2012
there is a war you haven't seen
because it is bigger than earth
and only felt in our dreams,
since we were drafted at birth
life and death were at war
our king came and met us on earth
just so we could have a curtain torn
and enter into a second birth
death made a final stride
as we watched our king die
i thought i would have to hide
but death was only the beginning of His battle cry
now i am a soldier in a multiworld war
serving behind a warrior king
who offered to die for me, an unfaithful whore
so i wouldn't be allowed to flirt with hell in a fling
he came to kill death
and claim his right as a husband
and death won't be left breathing
since death's death was perfectly planned
the war is still goin'
and we are charged to fight until death
since that is when we go home
and finally sit in glory finding our rest.
because it is bigger than earth
and only felt in our dreams,
since we were drafted at birth
life and death were at war
our king came and met us on earth
just so we could have a curtain torn
and enter into a second birth
death made a final stride
as we watched our king die
i thought i would have to hide
but death was only the beginning of His battle cry
now i am a soldier in a multiworld war
serving behind a warrior king
who offered to die for me, an unfaithful whore
so i wouldn't be allowed to flirt with hell in a fling
he came to kill death
and claim his right as a husband
and death won't be left breathing
since death's death was perfectly planned
the war is still goin'
and we are charged to fight until death
since that is when we go home
and finally sit in glory finding our rest.
i cannot wait for you to come back down
sometimes i wish i knew the date
when i get to see your crown
but until then i am content to wait
the first time you came
the entire world changed
since the strongest are now the lame
and heaven is no longer out of our range
i was an orphan
and you said i was your son
i ran and you pursued me with loving contortions
until i stopped running and believed it was done
while i am still in-between two lives
you charged me with bringing in your reign
by showing how to make our souls arise
since when you've tasted joy nothing is the same.
sometimes i wish i knew the date
when i get to see your crown
but until then i am content to wait
the first time you came
the entire world changed
since the strongest are now the lame
and heaven is no longer out of our range
i was an orphan
and you said i was your son
i ran and you pursued me with loving contortions
until i stopped running and believed it was done
while i am still in-between two lives
you charged me with bringing in your reign
by showing how to make our souls arise
since when you've tasted joy nothing is the same.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
note: saint mary street is where i live. It's a reference to my street, not jesus's mother. i do love jesus's, though.
i have been broken
more than i can explain
but there is a part awoken
by feeling this pain
a part that is full of longing
and in a constant search
for what is the purpose of belonging
that has been in my heart since birth
there is a purpose i cannot explain
i only find it when i walk out
and get washed in the rain
and simply walk about
it is a simple peace
that is sweeter than life
i experience a full release
and my heart rests without any strife
this is why i love summer nights
when i can wander without constrains
under saint mary's street lights
being washed in the summer rain.
i have been broken
more than i can explain
but there is a part awoken
by feeling this pain
a part that is full of longing
and in a constant search
for what is the purpose of belonging
that has been in my heart since birth
there is a purpose i cannot explain
i only find it when i walk out
and get washed in the rain
and simply walk about
it is a simple peace
that is sweeter than life
i experience a full release
and my heart rests without any strife
this is why i love summer nights
when i can wander without constrains
under saint mary's street lights
being washed in the summer rain.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
what is freedom
and how far does it span?
i'm confused since i'm bound to a kingdom
and now part of its plan
i followed what i felt
i thought it would make me free
but it created a personal hell
i was unable to flee
freedom is larger than grandiose plans
than pursuing a title or crown
or siezing what is mans
and it's only discovered by being bound
freedom comes when every act
is a pursuit of glory
by celebrating what we do not lack
since we're discovering the creators story
to eat, smoke, and drink
is not longer a mere end
because every thought we think
is celebrating that we've been cleansed
freedom forever changes the ordinary
nothing is a mere end
it goes deeper than we could intend
since it's the pursuit of glory.
and how far does it span?
i'm confused since i'm bound to a kingdom
and now part of its plan
i followed what i felt
i thought it would make me free
but it created a personal hell
i was unable to flee
freedom is larger than grandiose plans
than pursuing a title or crown
or siezing what is mans
and it's only discovered by being bound
freedom comes when every act
is a pursuit of glory
by celebrating what we do not lack
since we're discovering the creators story
to eat, smoke, and drink
is not longer a mere end
because every thought we think
is celebrating that we've been cleansed
freedom forever changes the ordinary
nothing is a mere end
it goes deeper than we could intend
since it's the pursuit of glory.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
this poem is more of a story of a mindset and how it worked its way out into a persons life. The idea is that of consumption. If you look at our cities, our advertisements, everything, you will notice the common theme of consumption and how we are taught to consume at all costs, since we deserve it. This is just about how consumption takes its toll on this one man.
my hands cannot produce
my mind can no longer create
i have become a recluse
a child in a mans place
i had grand and vast ideas
high hopes and large dreams
but what i did only reveals
my beliefs underlying themes
it began with what i ate
i never feasted, but only consumed
i drank and lavished myself until it was late
and when i woke i simply resumed
i worked hoping to find more
so i could hold what i was told was good
i slaved until my hands were torn
just to live in a better neighborhood
i married for love i thought
but it was just so i could fulfill my lust
she wasn't what i really sought
and my heart still laid in the dust
i brought three children to this earth
giving to them seemed satisfying
but i wanted them to be perfect at their birth
so nothing i said was sanctifying
every good intention was duplicit
all of it was meant to fulfill me
everything i said had something to elicit
i never gave or offered an apology
i consumed it all
until every good thing was devoured
my life began to fall
the only thing left was my sin, totally empowered
i sat at my desk
unable to forget my sorrow
because of the lives i've wrecked
and pray no one looks at me as one to follow
death looked like the way redeem
all the pain i forced into peoples life
there was no way for me to be cleaned
so i began to use a knife
as i began to take my breath
a man spoke a few simple words
" it's already paid, there is none left
my life was given to pay for your death"
i wept as i lay powerless
unable to justify my life
yet i lay here guiltless
with no turmoil, not a hint of strife
i finally was able to rest
to lay in silence
with an alien righteousness impressed
my soul and god were in compliance
with my blood leaving
a new one entered
i am gladly clinging
on the hope of a new world he's bringing
my hands cannot produce
my mind can no longer create
i have become a recluse
a child in a mans place
i had grand and vast ideas
high hopes and large dreams
but what i did only reveals
my beliefs underlying themes
it began with what i ate
i never feasted, but only consumed
i drank and lavished myself until it was late
and when i woke i simply resumed
i worked hoping to find more
so i could hold what i was told was good
i slaved until my hands were torn
just to live in a better neighborhood
i married for love i thought
but it was just so i could fulfill my lust
she wasn't what i really sought
and my heart still laid in the dust
i brought three children to this earth
giving to them seemed satisfying
but i wanted them to be perfect at their birth
so nothing i said was sanctifying
every good intention was duplicit
all of it was meant to fulfill me
everything i said had something to elicit
i never gave or offered an apology
i consumed it all
until every good thing was devoured
my life began to fall
the only thing left was my sin, totally empowered
i sat at my desk
unable to forget my sorrow
because of the lives i've wrecked
and pray no one looks at me as one to follow
death looked like the way redeem
all the pain i forced into peoples life
there was no way for me to be cleaned
so i began to use a knife
as i began to take my breath
a man spoke a few simple words
" it's already paid, there is none left
my life was given to pay for your death"
i wept as i lay powerless
unable to justify my life
yet i lay here guiltless
with no turmoil, not a hint of strife
i finally was able to rest
to lay in silence
with an alien righteousness impressed
my soul and god were in compliance
with my blood leaving
a new one entered
i am gladly clinging
on the hope of a new world he's bringing
Thursday, January 26, 2012
The great reversal happened
so i may no longer weep
see joy no man imagined
and finally lay down to sleep
sadness is no longer my affliction
since jesus imparted joy to my breath
sorrow is no longer my restriction
and i do not live in fear of death
my doubts and fears were crucified
with a man who embodied perfection
and now my anxiety subsides
because he paid for my infection
i'm free to scream and run
to live and create
because it is done
now i live and for his return await.
so i may no longer weep
see joy no man imagined
and finally lay down to sleep
sadness is no longer my affliction
since jesus imparted joy to my breath
sorrow is no longer my restriction
and i do not live in fear of death
my doubts and fears were crucified
with a man who embodied perfection
and now my anxiety subsides
because he paid for my infection
i'm free to scream and run
to live and create
because it is done
now i live and for his return await.
Friday, January 20, 2012
I am so tired
after man long years
of chasing what i desired
i am filled with fears
my desk is covered with papers
my stomach is hollow
my dreams are mere vapors
and in my pity i wallow
are my dreams really what is good?
do i really need to pursue this stress
is what i really desire mere food?
what i am asking is this:
is there more to life than this torrential mess?
there is a longing in my soul
to create and be free
as if i have a hole
that sits deep inside of me
there is a man that made sense of me
even though i was a wretch
he had spoken my plea
with his arms outstretched
he told me this was not my home
and that is why i longed to leave
i am not cursed to roam
i follow him and he is pleased
he's given me a family, a home
a place to slumber, to rest
where i no longer have sins to atone
following him makes suffering my best
since someday i will eternally rest
after man long years
of chasing what i desired
i am filled with fears
my desk is covered with papers
my stomach is hollow
my dreams are mere vapors
and in my pity i wallow
are my dreams really what is good?
do i really need to pursue this stress
is what i really desire mere food?
what i am asking is this:
is there more to life than this torrential mess?
there is a longing in my soul
to create and be free
as if i have a hole
that sits deep inside of me
there is a man that made sense of me
even though i was a wretch
he had spoken my plea
with his arms outstretched
he told me this was not my home
and that is why i longed to leave
i am not cursed to roam
i follow him and he is pleased
he's given me a family, a home
a place to slumber, to rest
where i no longer have sins to atone
following him makes suffering my best
since someday i will eternally rest
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